Laudanum

@2014

   

Only Fools

His freezing heart in silence deeply bleeds
She never loved him, never understood his needs.

When she broke his heart (for twice she cheated; so he says) she left him - gone!

He, never resurrected left to die and all alone, now lies about everything

Finding him too vain, she never explained why she doesn't miss his love, his touch, his kiss ….
In her unblemished pure existence, she is thriving.  

He is surviving, crying himself to sleep in pain

Clearly, she ruined him for everyone to follow

Depression bound, his heart is hollow 

Worthless, unable to apologize

I don't expect much when I say: "Don't worry your pretty little head, you're fine. Focus on your self instead."

Certain, I am over his mesmerizing big brown eyes

I try not to give into the lies

You just keep singing that ol' tune, little dreamer, Mr. Lonely...

Making up mad lies underneath the moon!

Empty

EMPTY

Your self-inflicted wound will never heal if you keep my heart at bay 

and yours in chains!

You really think I don't know how you feel?
I know. I can feel everything you're feeling

I heard it all.

All, but your thoughts and yet, words are not enough

Honor me, my soul that is your soul
Show me love!

In your cloak with a dagger you dig deep into my pain
Carving kind words into your own flesh to impress me?

Why can't you just say them? You refused

When you punish me, you punish you

Sinking into your filthy swamp of strange abuse

Your love is heavy (as is mine) ....yet, sometimes, in shades of deepest blue - I'm fine.

Underwater there is no tomorrow, only now

My lungs are empty

My heart is hollow

Still, I learned to breathe somehow