Empty

EMPTY

Your self-inflicted wound will never heal if you keep my heart at bay 

and yours in chains!

You really think I don't know how you feel?
I know. I can feel everything you're feeling

I heard it all.

All, but your thoughts and yet, words are not enough

Honor me, my soul that is your soul
Show me love!

In your cloak with a dagger you dig deep into my pain
Carving kind words into your own flesh to impress me?

Why can't you just say them? You refused

When you punish me, you punish you

Sinking into your filthy swamp of strange abuse

Your love is heavy (as is mine) ....yet, sometimes, in shades of deepest blue - I'm fine.

Underwater there is no tomorrow, only now

My lungs are empty

My heart is hollow

Still, I learned to breathe somehow

Interstellar

Under the starlight in the deep blue sea
gliterry stars are made of you and me
two old souls ...
(I knew this when we met)
now centuries old...

We can't ever forget that we come from stars ...
There we shall return!
Life is just a blink of an eye
Earth is our sojourn!
It's a double edged sword when you sail away

I know that my sun will shine again

Someday, when love is all I feel
when love is returned to me
when love is truly real

Waterfall

for my daddy ♥ 

( February 13, 1947 - September 1, 2004 )

WATERFALL

 

Lost in the world, feeling all alone

aching, as his will is gone

cancer strikes, yet, he battles on!

A warrior.

A champion!

Iron-clad chains weigh him down, masquerading as sacrifice

Yet, hope remains where sweet love reigns ...

He gave me my big beautiful blue eyes 

 I wish to see him smile again

I come to realize

I am an immigrant child in his paradise

I kneel to humbly dare to pray

confused about what to say, I ask for help, soaked in guilt

thriving, in a world he built

Please stay, stay, I dare say

Thinking back to when life was fair

the woods, the rivers … our precious past, our joyful days, sweet memories that last…

I now see, how much he longs to be the way he was, when young and strong, a gushing bull of energy

Standing tall, I understood, why once an oak, he barely could

why his river turned a waterfall

why I long to love him after all

Perhaps, on this very quiet night

he, sitting by the lonely light

will take me back to a time I miss, when wrong made good with a simple kiss

Perhaps, he'll think about that time

when the world was his and he was none, but mine 

Bushido

What makes me who I am? 

Discipline. Dedication. Positivity. Focus. Honesty. Love

I'm not here ...

What is this thing?

Pretense or fear?

Depths of your soul are refusing to hear me!

I herald defeat, but not out of fear 

My truth is denied, demolished and ravaged when love finally arrived, but instantly damaged, bleeding and aching, was perturbed by your spear

No where to run 

No where to hide

I am not here

I am not here